Can't seem to keep up

Well the photo challenge was sort of a fail. Dispite the endless hours I spend at a desk at work, I always forget to post the picture for that day. I have actually been spending alot more time in the gym. I am on a new quest to get fit and healthy, not only in body but in spirit as well. This past year has been sort of an unknown struggle. I have drifted from God and my church. Lately I have not been to any events except Sunday School. And although that is more than some have the privalege to participate in, I hadnt been appreciative of it. I am now trying to get back to the closeness I once had with God. I don't want to live from youth trip to youth trip, I want to constantly have that burning fire for God. I am very fortunate to have great Christian friends and people to look up to. Sometimes it does feel like I am drowning while trying to keep up with work, friends, and family. But I am constantly reminded that I am not living this life alone, and I find great comfort in that. I was not able to go on our yearly mission trip with my youth group and I was very upset about that, but not fully because I couldn't help rebuild a family's life. I was upset because I would not be able to be around and socialize with my friends in the youth group. But as the week went on, I kept thinking about how I felt last year about this time after we had gone to Puerto Rico. It was such an amazing trip and it was because I was so on fire for God and was surrounded by Christians who had that same passion to live for Him. We all had the same goal, to set that fire for other people who may not know anything about God previously. But ever since school had started in my junior year, that fire in me has seemed to fizzle out. As I am working to improve my health physically, I am certainly going to work on my spirituality. I am headed to Caswell this week, this is a very special trip for quite a few of our youth and some of my best friends. This is their last trip as youth because they are going to college this fall. I also love this camp because it is so good at helping to light that fire in your heart. They have great worship, devotions and great people to help lead you, no matter where you are in your spiritual journey. I usually do not ask for prayer requests for myself but please pray for me as I go through this journey, it is not a particularly easy one.

Love always and forever,
            Hannah Joy